I miss myself

I miss the days I only thought of me, not extensions of me…

Growing older has come at me fast😂 although I’ve been anticipating it and was at the edge of my seat, begging for it. Now that it has happened, I’m struggling with having time for myself.

It’s crazy to explain but it’s easy to understand.

I’ve just touched the surface of adulting but I’m in dire need of a break and at the same time, I don’t have the willpower to take one.

I’m unraveling extensions of myself but I can’t fully express it because I’m chasing money 😂

Recently I’ve just discovered that my relationship with money is like an old wound that hasn’t healed inside but has covered on the outside.  So, this constant fear of ‘sapa’ has made me abandon ME and I don’t know how to feel about it 😂

I miss the days I could afford to go weeks on end doing nothing but watch YouTube videos and pretend to be a youtuber 😂 when I wasn’t racking my brain trying to figure out what angles looked best, what marketing gimmick to employ and how much money I needed to keep aside in order to improve my business content.

How do I even balance business me with regular shmegular me?

I miss the me that only thought of herself and not the extensions she’s creating. I need a break, but I can’t even afford that 😂

Now, I’m going into a sink hole but my business has started picking up.

A win is still a win yeah?